I still remember the night vividly. I was driving on part of a freeway close enough to the ocean that you could see it in the distance in my beat-up car that leaked inside when it rained. It held all of my belongings. I didn’t have anywhere to sleep that night. I remember thinking no one would really notice or care if I was gone. I was in a very desperate, hopeless place.
A variety of circumstances that hadn’t gone my way all piled up into a hopeless heap in my mind, and I felt like I no longer had any options other than to end the suffering and pain I had endured for many years. I wanted to die. I was homeless, I couldn’t hold a job long enough to support myself very well, many of my relationships were strained, and the list goes on.
As these thoughts and considerations raced through my mind, my phone rang. God had miraculously intervened at the perfect time. On the phone was a friend who said that God had told him to get me a hotel room for the night. He told me the location, and as I pulled off the freeway in search of the hotel, I knew deep down that God had literally just saved my life. As I cried in my hotel room that night, a small spark of hope emerged. If God could intervene so powerfully in a situation like that, then maybe He could intervene powerfully in other areas of my life that seemed completely hopeless. I finally went to sleep; thankful I was still alive and hopeful for what the next days would bring.
It has been over 16 years since then. After that night, God continued to intervene. Soon after, I got the best paying job I had ever had and finally found some stability. I made enough money to rent a place to live, I was able to get a better car, and I met my husband. Today we have three beautiful children, a beautiful home, and I am blessed beyond what I ever could have imagined.
My journey and my process of healing have taken a lot of time and intentional work on my end. God has been incredibly faithful and has healed me deeply in a variety of ways, mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. The key to healing from the pain I experienced was for me to face my pain head-on so God could heal me from the trauma.
I want to encourage you to be vulnerable and face any pain you might have. Find a solid, Bible-believing church, a professional Christian counselor, and/or a prayer team that can pray for you. When you face your pain, you will find tremendous healing on the other side. The Bible says that Jesus sympathizes with us in our human frailty and that He understands us because He was human too. I encourage you to be bold and seek Him out so you can discover the grace you might urgently need to strengthen you when you are feeling weak and need His healing touch. I know He will answer; my life is living proof.
Hebrews 4:14-16 TPT – “So then, we must cling in faith to all we know to be true. For we have a magnificent King-Priest, Jesus Christ, the Son of God, who rose into the heavenly realm for us, and now sympathizes with us in our frailty. He understands humanity, for as a Man, our magnificent King-Priest was tempted in every way just as we are, and conquered sin. So now we come freely and boldly to where love is enthroned, to receive mercy’s kiss and discover the grace we urgently need to strengthen us in our time of weakness.”
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