You know me.
You’ve always known me.
Even when I didn’t know you.
You knew me when my biological father left me.
And you knew me when you gave me another earthly father to raise me in love. To show me you.
You knew me when I tried to hang myself at eight years old.
You said, “you can’t come home yet, child. I have more for you.”
I just couldn’t hear your whisper. But it spoke loud and clear when the rope snapped and I hit the ground still breathing.
You knew me when I cried, lonely, afraid, and feeling worthless. You set forth a series of events to arrange our meeting.
You knew me when I ran from you. Others may have given up on me, but you never did.
You knew me when I did right, and you knew me when I did wrong. Your love never changed.
You knew me when I tried to fill my heart with all the wrong things. You knew I would see the truth one day.
You knew I would run back to you.
You knew I would love you above all else.
You knew when I needed to go left, and you knew when I needed to go right. You never stop leading and guiding me down the right path.
Great is your faithfulness.
You’ve provided places to live before I even knew I was moving.
You supplied my needs when it seemed there was no way.
You have healed me. You have healed my family.
You have protected us from harm. Looking back I stand in awe at the ways you have saved us, keeping us in your mighty arms.
What the world has meant to hurt me, you have used to help me. When the world has caused me pain, you have comforted me. Your mercies are new every morning.
You give me joy in place of mourning, and you keep me in perfect peace as I trust in you.
When I cannot see a way… You make the way.
You knew me before I came to be.
You knew me before I acknowledged your name. You know me still.
When man disappoints, you deliver. You remind me of my own imperfections. You lead me to humble surrender.
You spoke the sun, moon, and stars into being, and yet, still you know my name. You know my innermost thoughts.
And you delight in me!
When I disappoint myself, and when I feel my lowest, you delight in me.
You have adopted me into your family. I always have a place at your table.
People may misunderstand me, but you know my heart. You always know.
I weep. I cry burning tears. How can you love me as you do?! All the words of gratitude I can muster will never be enough.
You knew me.
You called me.
You waited for me. You never gave up.
You saved me. You save me still.
You speak to me. In the deepest places, you speak your truth. Whom have I but you?
The One who knows me.
This is an updated edition of a post originally published on Brie Gowen.