When My Vow Became a God

Many of God’s people in tough situations in their lives have become perfectionists and many other things because they vowed a vow that was not of Him.

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The Lord told me to share again this word from July 4, 2019.


“If a man vows a vow to The LORD or swears an oath to bind himself by a pledge, he shall not break and profane his word; he shall do according to all that proceeds out of his mouth,” Numbers 30:2 (AMP).

The LORD spoke to me the other day out of the blue and began to show me something about many people.

He began by reminding me of my story…. When I was very, very young I was married to a man who was abusive both verbally and physically.

I don’t tell you this story to gain your sympathy or to make excuses for my life, but to see you set free of something that you may not even realize has controlled your life for many years.

While I was married to this man back in 1969 I became pregnant with the only child that I ever had, and who is now with The LORD.

Because of some of the abuse, I believe I lost this child. When I began to miscarry, he took me to the Air-force hospital in Michigan where we were stationed and there he left me in this cold room with no one to be with me.

I remember there being another person in the room in another bed. I was in full labor because I was about five months along.

I remember at one point a nurse coming in and saying to me that I needed to be quiet so as to not disturb anyone else. So as silently as I could in that much pain, I finished having this miscarriage.

The next morning I woke up to go to the restroom and passed out. The next thing I knew I was back in bed and they told me that I had undergone a DNC. I didn’t even know what that was I was just 16 years old and didn’t know much about life.

When I came out and went home my husband began to tell me how fat I was, so I ate nothing but beef broth until I was down to my size three clothes again.

I found out from someone that my husband had been at a party with another woman all the while that I was in the hospital.

The next week we went to a place with some friends and I was in the back seat and started crying as I was telling the other lady in our car about my miscarriage. My then-husband stopped the car abruptly and turned around and began slapping me over and over.

I shared all of this as background as to what God would reveal to me.

Many years later after I had been divorced and had gotten married to my husband now of 25 years, I was in my basement ironing. I was asking The LORD what caused my perfectionism that had driven me and everyone else nearly crazy for many years.

He showed me that at that moment that the incident happened that I had Vowed a Vow in my heart that I would never let another man do that to me again. That I would always be the prettiest and the skinniest, the best housekeeper, etc.

He said that I needed to disavow that which I had vowed. I cried all day, but God set me free.

Now just the other day, The LORD spoke to me again and said, when you make a vow that is not of Him, that the vow begins to inwardly govern your life and it becomes a god to you instead of Him.

He said many of His people in tough situations in their lives have become perfectionists and many other things because they vowed a vow that was not of Him.

They have blocked out His Will for their life because it had become a constitution to them.

He wanted me to bring this out so that anyone reading can ask the Holy Spirit to shine His light on these areas and you can be set free to be obedient to Him again.

So ask The LORD right now, to shine His light in any area that you have made your own constitution.

He is ready to set you free. It is not an easy thing to do.

It will tear you up inside, but it is a good tearing. You will feel so free when this happens!

Many of you will be healed in your body right now as you allow this to happen. Glory to our Deliverer!

Father, we ask you to shine your light on those places in us that we have not yielded over to you because of ungodly vows in our time of pain.

We ask you to cleanse us of that and let your Holy Spirit teach us how to walk in freedom and obedience to your will In Jesus’ Mighty Name! Amen!




This is an updated edition of a post originally published on TCIC Ministries 

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About the Author

Jo Ellen is a prophetic speaker, singer, intercessor, and pastor. The Lord has called her to be His mouthpiece no matter what she is involved with. She believes we will see The Knowledge of the glory of the Lord cover the earth as the waters cover the sea in our lifetime!!