Have you ever felt like the lid to your stress level is about to erupt from your being with volcanic force? Well, I have to admit that I’ve been feeling this way for the last little while, and I’m beyond ready for this season to pass. Amidst the normal obligations that come with work and family, I’ve been dealing with some very serious issues that have left me feeling almost paralyzed by anxiety and fear. I am already a “nervous Nellie,” so it has never been my nature not to worry.
I’m not a “talk about it until I’m blue in the face” worrier; I’m worse. I am a silent, brooding, catastrophic, snowball-building worrier. I have developed this pattern over many years, and unfortunately, it takes a very long time to change. I have finally begun to learn that when I consciously slow down and rely on what I know rather than what I feel, I come out with a whole lot more sanity.
This is harder than it may sound…darn near impossible sometimes in my opinion. To that end, I took a moment a couple of days ago to declare what I know out loud into the face of all my fears and doubts. What I feel is that I’m alone, I’m scared, and I can’t make it through. What I know is that, regardless of my circumstances (any circumstance), God is faithful, sovereign, and has plans for my good.
How do I know this? Because I have a faith bank that is rich in struggles that He has carried me through, a vault overflowing with His perfect love, and an ATM that dispenses peace, mercy, and grace in an endless supply. He has proven Himself time and time again, and with each experience, I add faith to my bank. The outcome may not always be what I want or expect, but He never promised to give me everything I ask for. He is a good Father who knows precisely how much faith I will need in the moment, and He ever so generously makes a deposit.
This is an updated edition of a post originally published on soulsaturation.wordpress.com
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