“Do you trust me?” I heard the spirit of God whisper this question to me as I sat on an old lifeguard chair overlooking a lake tucked between the mountains at a family camp I had frequented growing up. The question He posed gripped my heart. My eyes filled with tears, contemplating my response. I wasn’t entirely convinced that I did actually trust Him, even in the smallest of ways, but I also knew I had nowhere else to turn. I mumbled a very desperate “yes” as I tried holding back the tears that were drifting down my face. Lifeguarding had been my main gig since I was 15 years old. I was filling in for a friend that day who needed coverage. It was approaching the beginning of summer, and I had just been given notice that I had two weeks to move out of my childhood home. I was 18 years old at the time, and about to turn 19. I was suddenly in need of a full-time job so I could support myself completely. I didn’t have a car or a college degree. It was a surreal, terrifying situation for me to be in. My well-being was being threatened, I was afraid of how I would provide for myself, and I had no idea how God would navigate me through this. I recognized that it would take a miracle for me to find a roof to sleep under, a place to work, and some form of transportation, within the two-week deadline.
As the shift ended, I came off the lifeguard chair with red puffy eyes, and a boulder in my throat that threatened to bring even more tears. As I walked on the beach to gather my things, a small amount of hope emerged in my heart. Maybe I could trust God to provide all the things I desperately needed in a short amount of time. About 30 minutes after this, I ended up in the recreation director’s office. As we debriefed about how the day had gone, I felt myself fade in and out of our conversation, as my mind was clearly on other things that afternoon. And then, a miracle happened. It occurred in the form of information and a question from Ben who stood in front of me. I had wide eyes as I listened to him speak.
“Every summer, we put together a recreation staff made of lifeguards, zip-line instructors, and climbing wall instructors who work at our summer camp. Applications for this summer started back in January, but we are looking for one more person to join our team. I don’t suppose you would be interested in a summer job, would you? The only requirement is that you would have to live here for the summer. Your room and board would be taken care of, and you wouldn’t need a car.”
Ben had no idea about the situation I was in, but God did.
Playing it cool, I said, “I’ll think and pray about this and will get back to you soon.”
Obviously, I took the job.
That summer marked the beginning of a trust journey with Him that was one of the most challenging journeys I have ever been on in my life. I would not have wanted it to go any other way than it did. I say that because I discovered that I can trust Him with anything. God provided for me in miraculous ways I had never experienced throughout the years that followed.
God is worthy of our trust. Proverbs 3:5 TPT says “Trust in the Lord completely and do not rely on your own opinions. With all your heart, rely on Him to guide you, and he will lead you in every decision you make.” God is dependable. We can count on Him.
Do you trust God with what is going on in your life right now, or are you holding on to the situation, and trying to control it yourself?
Prayer: Lord God, please help me trust You completely with everything that is going on in my life. Lead and guide me in every decision I make. I know that You are trustworthy, and I can trust You with everything. In Jesus’s Name, Amen.