Seeing in the Land of the Living: I Remain Confident (Part 10)
Confidence looks like buying another pregnancy test when the last 20 were negative because you know your God says you are fruitful and you will multiply.
Melissa Forster lives in Missouri with her husband, Dan, and their adorable gray cat named Leo. She loves Jesus with her whole heart and loves following Him to a place where her faith is without borders. She collects llamas, t-rexs and grand adventures. Her favorite place to be is tucked in at home with copious amounts of coffee and a great book. Melissa and Dan have been struggling with delayed fertility for ten years and have two precious babies in heaven. Melissa writes from her heart about her (slightly dramatic) near death experiences, grief, joy and who Jesus is in the midst of all of it.
Confidence looks like buying another pregnancy test when the last 20 were negative because you know your God says you are fruitful and you will multiply.
I turned these words over and over in my mind for days and then it hit me, our God doesn’t waste anything.
In early April 2019, I went to my neurologist and heard the words “recurrence.”
Maybe I was never healed? Did God really promise healing forever? Maybe the condition was just in remission?
We believed in our hearts that this day would be a good day.
If I am being completely honest, there were several days that I struggled to remember what I had been promised.
This isn’t the first time fear and I have battled.
As the threat of losing vision has bounced around my mind I realized something. The circumstances were both very similar, and my first reaction was fear.
On my darkest days, I asked God hard questions. Why isn’t the healing promised in scripture coming?
Part 1 of a 10-Part Series – One week later, I had several tests that confirmed the doctor’s assumption. My spinal pressure was nearly double what the normal level should be.
